I know some of you have heard the news of what happened to me recently (at the beginning of term), and for those of you who haven't, you'll just have to guess, because I'm not making it public. But since then I've been feeling really alone and isolated, and I guess I'm trying to reach out now? I don't know...but I've been spending a lot of time sitting around watching Anime, wondering why I should even bother being out of bed. Draco's being here for two days a week helps (probably helps both of us actually), but that's only for two days, and it still doesn't make me hate my job any less (I'm a cook for Qdoba on campus...which means I actually clean for 3-4 hours each night...), and seeing all these couples all over the place really doesn't help either...I just wish I wasn't isolated from all my friends on top of this...I feel a bit abandoned...I know my friends haven't abandoned me, but when I barely see them anymore...

I really wish I had someone to help me through this, someone to lean on, but no one seems to be around anymore...and similar to what Draco said, I'm starting to feel really insecure again...but for slightly different reasons than his...